The day was painful when colleagues ask why your eyes are swollen, why so quiet, blah blah. Answering them saps ma life force. Dragged ma ass to the gym after the huge rain and instantly felt better after the work out and binging on kebab wrap. Plonked down to Dota to distract myself and while time away. Laid in bed and checked out “Timehop” app, and it informed me that today...
Skipped work, and just laid in bed. Really wanted to quit my job and not do anything. Had to deal with screaming bitches (at home) and friend’s comment of “Go lose weight and be hot again!” 9/10 tells me that. Tried my best not to think about anything and sleep but unless I murder my younger sis, it’s impossible. A bad mistake of scrolling my timeline on Facebook and...
Reality sinks in and spent most of the day rolling up in bed. How I’m feeling? Feels like you’ve lost the only safety net in your life. The only that’s real for the past years of my life has just vanished and yet, you know it’s only for the better. Things that made my eyes sting today? 1) Remembering the hair cut I did for him in Japan 2) The “July” present I’m accumulating for his...
Ranting on Monday
Nowadays, I feel bad about myself, I blame everything for the misfortune that is happening to me everyday. I felt jealous why people found their own place and happiness in terms of job and relationship. While me, I’m caught in between. I felt like I am not doing good enough for myself. I felt that my life sucks. And I don’t deserve this. This attitude eats my soul, leaving my heart in doubt and...
When someone doesn’t reciprocate your feelings doesn’t mean that he/she is an asshole. So before you go around calling that person names, think. Have you ever rejected someone? If you had, don’t go judging other people’s choice. If your friend chose the path to like someone, that is his/her choice. If they are rejected, then maybe they are better off as friends. Don’t go persecuting the person...
I'm just a fool
I had my heart set on you But nothing else hurts like you do Who knew that love was so cruel And I Waited and waited so long For someone to never come home It’s my fault to think you’ll be true I’m just a fool
Try not to remember. I'm trying.
Try to erase The smell of freedom And every face That happened to meet mine What still remains Something unrelenting I’ll say the names Of those I left behind In the still of the night Do you laugh, do you cry? Do you try not to remember? If it’s a question of fate Do you love, do you hate? Do you try not to remember? I see your eyes In my own reflection These...
对他的感觉慢慢地失去控制。试过了控制，也尝试理智的对待，却一次又一次的失败。也没在管自己到底有多伤，就只担心失去了个朋友。我觉得真是自作孽，不能控制还靠那么近。朋友在身边唠唠叨叨，难道有谁不想好好的过吗？难道我不想找个会珍惜我的人吗？何必作贱自己，绕着个对我没感觉的人，受尽旁人的冷言冷语。最让人心寒的是，没人会觉得你伟大或浪漫。一切的一切就一个’笨’字。拿了一天的假，看着电脑，对这一个“没人看”的网站发泄，感觉还不错。 点首歌给自己听。 陈伟联 - 永远的朋友 因为太爱你 拼命达到你的需要 虽然只是朋友 总比什么都不是好 借你肩膀依靠 借你关心也借你微笑 我很想给 你却不要 爱着你却伤心的只能守候不能拥有 真挚的做一个永远的朋友 看着你旧旧的简讯内容 我看见爱情向我大声嘲弄 爱着你却大方的陪你恋爱替你加油 虚弱的做一个永远的朋友 几次累的想断绝联络...